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I think that opposites definitely attract each other. Just like spongebob and squidward, black and white, ice and fire: the most dark person will always find the brightest person in the room to be around. If there’s any take away from this specific attraction force, it is that as human beings: everyone needs balance in life. Slowly, the positives and negatives meet together to grow as an individual.
In order to meet at this spot, humans intrinsically seek a cascade of different mechanisms that seemingly makes us a more “positive” or “negative” person. In my opinion, being the positive or negative person are both bad. Rather than putting a definition on one or the other, becoming the middle should be the real goal. Sitting at one extreme or the other creates an unknowing sense of vacancy of every experience in between. When we are overly positive, we focus only on the positives of life and when we are overly negative, we only focus on the negatives of life. Most of the time, nothing is totally positive or negative: leaving people in extremities to dissociate on most parts of life.
I recently met someone that has changed my extremities. If I were to use a scene to describe my relationship with her, it would be watching the sun setting perfectly over the ocean while the moon rises. This may be grotesquely angsty to illustrate but I used to sit through the day just so the night would come quicker. Nothing about the day excited me, everything was way too bright, exciting and loud: just like people. I wanted everything to be the night, the quiet and the dark. It just felt safer. This lasted until I encountered someone like her. I’ve come to understand her behavior is just that rather than hateful, she’s grateful. While most people sit down to expect the most negative or positive outcome, she is already content with everything that she already has. In other words, there are no expectations to her outcomes.
This isn’t supposed to say that humans should live life without goals. I used to let myself become so engulfed in my parent’s lack of expectations for me because it would always spiral end as a conversation about the differing life path that they want for me. There are no cures and hinders to desires. As human beings, there is an endless loop of constant work and with work there is suffering. This is why being balanced is all the most important as we endlessly loop ourselves into experience cycles of wanting and then achieving. The development of the human brain: before the age of twenty five, people’s brains aren’t fully developed. What this means it that the things shaping an individual before this age is the experiences that has created change into our fundamental genes. In other words, it’s better to have gone through most rollercoaster lifestyles instead of staying completely peaceful. Now coming around, I think humans should live life with a goal to experience rather than achieve. After all, the most costly pain is the regret of avoiding your whole life. Speaking of avoiding, let’s go back to the example I brought up about my parents. I genuinely used to live a life in which my main priority was to prove them wrong somehow. That deep down, they felt as if I was more incompetent than my older sister because I was becoming someone that they could not understand anymore. I don’t think there will ever be an understanding between generational gaps but I wouldn’t want to live with this enemy anymore either. In order to mature, I needed myself to stop antagonizing my own life. Believe it or not, I can still be the main character to my own story without a traumatic past, powerful life long enemy villain and supporting side team characters.
As Phil Stutz from the his own film tribute Stutz explains, “Instead of seeing problems as an expression of an ‘condition’ whose cause was in the past, we needed to see them as catalysts for developing forces that were already present, lying dormant inside us.”
Time will forever be finite and sacred. If I wanted every single moment of my life to feel truly alive, there needs to be a finite amount of control I have to create on to my own intellectual processing and decision making. Even rambling right now, it’s doing more than just allowing me to completely expand my own mind to verbally bring out every single piece of experience. With sincerity, I believe that sometimes all we need is a better worded phrase to actually take action into changing ourselves. After all, if there was a takeaway from everything, then nothing feels meaningless. When you throw yourself into that pool of unknown and overcome it, life feels open again. That’s my ramble for the day. As always, have a great day folks.
